Update

The past two weeks have been up and down. Some days have been terrific...feeling great and moving about. Other days, not so terrific...feeling not so great, sick to my stomach and weak, sore and tired.

Today...I feel wonderful. It's so amazing how I can wake up...and not feel that "LUMP"!! What a different feeling. How horrible it was to know when I woke up that there was cancer inside my body, doing what it wanted and I had no control. So scared to think about how far it had travelled the night before, or what it may have infected.

Great news from the Dr. at my follow up appointment last Monday. NO CANCER IN THE LYMPHNODE!! How amazing. I am blessed...but that does not mean it's over. Not by a long shot.

I have my next two appointments on Tuesday. First with the surgeon, then the oncologist. I will know what my course of treatment will be then. Probably Chemotherapy and Radiation both.

I have come to terms (I think) with the thought of losing my hair. I mean...hair vs life...I choose LIFE. My hair will grow back. So many people have said, just get a wig, wear a bandana or a scarf. I have decided, if I am going to lose my hair, that will be my BADGE OF COURAGE. The only thing I plan on wearing at times is a ball cap.

I feel that all women should know that having cancer is NOT our choice....but what we do after the diagnosis IS. We can lie down and let it consume us, or we can stand up and fight back. I believe a part of that is being who you are...truly. And for me, being who I am is not covering up. I did not choose to have this, I did not have the option of saying NO...but I do have the choice of remaining true to myself.

I will let you all know what both Dr.'s say on Tuesday. I will be a little apprehensive when I get there I am sure...but I am ready. So bring on the rest of the treatment process, so I can get on with the healing!